self-reproached

Virginia now, and I confess I almost felt self-reproached when you said that you were perfectly satisfied with my promise not to join the Southern Army "without my father's consent."

A soldier's recollections : leaves from the diary of a young Confederate : with an oration on the motives and aims of the soldiers of the South, 1910

If you are self-reproached in the midst of a religious excitement, you will find that you will be almost induced to give up your own personality to please some one whom you hold in reverent esteem.

What's in a Dream: A Scientific and Practical Interpretation of Dreams 1901

"God grant it!" responded the captain with a groan, self-reproached for the little faith beside the strong desire.

A Rough Shaking George MacDonald 1864

She could not reconcile the solecism of loving two men at once; and though her feelings had been as spontaneous as Nature itself, she was self-reproached with unfaithfulness and wrong.

Zoe: The History of Two Lives 1845

"Paul is very patient," said Faith -- not lightly, as Margaret had spoken, but as one self-reproached, almost, for abusing patience -- "and they go to-morrow to Lake George.

Faith Gartney's Girlhood 1865